Read Receipt | By Yours Truly

I never ever, ever like to be brought to this point but some things just can't go without mention and today I have a receipt to read with someone's name on it. I'm to classy to put either party out but I hope that they clutch their pearls tighter than I did when they read this. Now, I take two things seriously and not to be misconstrued and that's my friends and my man. You mess with either, we got problems. Now, it becomes a a very big deal as well as distasteful when I consider someone a "friend"  and they burn me. Now, this situation...I don't really consider her my friend, not that she's every done anything to cross me outside of her mileage count but I just don't hang out with her often like I do with my "friends" so, sorry she missed the cut but a few falling points. NOW, let me get to the tea, someone I do consider my friend felt the need to let me in on something that I didn't know about the man I'm suppose to be "building" my relationship with & the tea I received was so sweet that, that sh!t was nasty. I mean it caught me completely left field, not because I didn't think either of them wouldn't do that because they both are woes (but a H where the W is) but the fact that a woman who prounces around as if we are cool, talking to me whenever seeing fit didn't think it was a good idea to tell me, his girlfriend (at the time) that she was having "relations" with the one I claimed mine. 

Now, that's one thing I just can't respect. I know dudes will do anything with anybody but I think highly of myself and because I do.. I expect my partner to do so as well and to stoop down to that level of boding someone who is less than a zero, is just beyond insulting to me which is why I had to X him for good. There were things leading up but this was the breaking point, no actually the breaking point was that a grown man would call himself "breaking up" with me due to a picture on instagram I had up at my friends kickback. Im so thankful to God that I had a nice amount of turn up juice that night because otherwise, I would have played into his stupid, immature games that I'm to good for. So really, him texting me the BS that night didn't mean anything to me for two reasons. 1. It was childish, like, who really assumes things on IG outside of petty females? Its interesting that he was in such a uproar about my innoncent picture being that he was posting his ex as his "Women Crush Wednesday" as well as the chick he "Really" likes (I'm just reporting what was on the page) and no, I didn't say anything to him about it simply because they didn't matter to me. I can't see myself getting upset about something on a social network period unless it's involving me and that...chile, didn't involve me. Reason number 2 and it happens to be my favorite is the kid who was in my picture, I don't even really know...we just have a mutual friend in common and it was a kickback so.....?? but the cherry on top I DON'T EVEN HAVE HIS NUMBER. I just really learned his name and boy did we fall out with laughter when I told him what my ex thought about our oh so sexy picture LMFAO! 

I'm hilarious. However, the moral to the story is: 

1. I found out this information all in one night so of course I was feeling myself 
2. Woes gon' be Woes so you can't blame Tammy 
3. I prayed a few nights before that God would take anyone out of my life who's not good for me and well, look at GAWD. 
4. Never trust a tooooo-friendly chick 
5. Never trust a guy who's been with everybody 
6. If she wants you, she's had him (that'll probably go over your head) 
7. I have AWESOME SAUCE FRIENDS
8. I know I'm over it because I'm not phased 
9. All in All I had a awesome weekend and I'm glad I didn't let anything or anyone ruin it. 
10. If he's not for you. God will show Y O U 

NO SHADE NO TEA .....

  

Social Media Madness!

So usually I try not to take time out to get really raw because I try to stay as professional as always at all times but one thing that has enraged me is social media. It's to the point where I wish that it didn't exist. Is it a good branding option? yes but people use it to: 

1. Break people down
2. Assume something that has nothing to do with anything. 
3. Speak negatively on situations and people they don't know about 
4. Ruin someone's credibility

People have let social media go completely to their heads. It has become a hurtful and negative place. Now, anybody saying anything isn't safe from the cruel world of social media. It's annoying that people go to social media to vent about everything that should be kept private. I learned a while ago, something I don't want the world to know I won't put out. If I don't mean it, I won't say it. It's all about taking accountability for your actions and your words and when you look at things that way you have no choice but to watch yourself more closely. This rant stemmed from a celebrity issue and something recently that just made me think "Are you serious?" since when did social media become validation for anything in life? Since when did people opinions matter so much? Why do we allow ourselves to get to this point when did we allow a device to control our lives?

 I say that because what would a day consist of outside of your phone? YOU WOULD LOSE YOUR MIND. I know because I've fallen victim until I realized how much I was missing by staring at my screen all day long. I'm so afraid for us, because very little seems to value  important things in life. I understand that some things are used for advancement but why is it every single time I log into Facebook I see a fight or someone getting exposed? Why is it every time I'm on Instagram there's someone posting a meme (I have before too) making fun of someone or their situation? and twitter, everybody feels their Iyanla Fix My Life trying to put their input on something NOT pertaining to them. 

I sit back and it saddens me... all of this sh*t saddens me. I want so much for my generation but we are SO LOST. We have clearly forgot about what's important and no I'm not perfect however I'm mature, I'm learning and lastly NOT TRYING TO MAKE THE SAME MISTAKES AGAIN.  Apply yourself, be honest with yourself and take care of yourself. Hurt people, hurt people and it's a lot of social media bullying going on that needs to come to a end. 

I have a birthday in two weeks that I'm completely nervous for because although it's another year God granted me it's time I woman up and take care of business. I want so much for myself and my family and I'm at a point (in my mind) that time is running out and I need to start handling things. Time waits for no man and every action affects you whether then or down the road so I'm making a vow to not bash or subtweet or meme anything negative because at the end of the day it effects me. So, if I get boring OH WELL. There's always vxnbhr that you can rely on.  Anyway I'm done with my rant this is another one of those things that I just had to speak on. 

Amber Rose and Wiz | Over Rover

Welp, 14 months later...she beat Kim ! 

I always thought that they were a odd couple anyway but the love between the two was undeniable. So it's little shocking that it's over so quickly. Especially with a child so young some how I have a feeling these two will either work it out or master this thing called co-parenting. Do I think she and Nick Cannon will go public? absolutely not. Will they mess around? I don't think I have to answer that but the laugh is the embarrassment Mariah Carey must feel knowing that her soon to be ex-husband is in the tabloids as being the cause of the split! Ouch ! This is really a mess and turned into one quickly at that. I guess we'll just have to see what will happen...not that I was really here for neither one of them. I love Muva Rosebud, she's dope but that's just not my type of tea....*sips*

Kris and Bruce Jenner Headed To Divorce Court!

There's another divorce taking place in The Kardashian franchise....

I guess 11 months of being separated was not enough for the couple. Kris Jenner filed for divorce this month via E online news. I knew eventually Bruce would get tired of Kris bossy ways because a few weeks later he followed up and filed as well. I know Bruce is all types of fed up dealing with all of the drama that follows being famous, especially in this family. I'm almost positive the camera's will be rolling throughout this divorce mess in classic Kardashian fashion. Being that both of them have made alot of money seperately and build an empire together with the Keeping Up with The Kardashian Show I know things can and more than likely will get ugly. I'm just surprised that nobody is tired of the camera's being in there face in their most intimate times I forget this family lives for all things FAMED. I wish the best for Bruce....Kris, well she'll find her way...

Rachet Review | Love and Hip Hop Hollywood Episode Two

 

 

 

Okay, so lets just get to it. Moniece is very crazy which we already knew however I find it funny that Fizz is more afraid of Moniece than his girlfriend is but am I the only one who felt like Moniece was talking to herself more than his GF Amanda when she first got to the table? Trying to calm herself down from hurting that girl that was funny. Bottom line they both have a point, no mother really wants another woman trying to tell her how to be a fit mom but then again the Amanda wasn't lying. Moniece isn't really there for her son.

 

 

Nikki, baby...if you don't have several seats chile. Lol I actually like Nikki's energy she's a go getter even though it is her family's empire. She really reminds be of the boss on the old reality show Candy Girls so I will say her storyline is pretty intriguing. Anyway, this whole relationship with Mally Mal is completely beyond messy especially since he's seeing that other chick on the side and both girls are every bit of headstrong. What I'm not here for his Soulja Boy's relationship with his girlfriend Nia...one, just when I thought the boy was growing out he showed his ass and two, it's really hard to believe that Nia didn't know about that picture being that it was taken so long ago. Mona has got to come harder than that. The only one giving her a run for her money is psycho Teairra Mari, that girl has anger issues. I thought she was so amped because she loved ray, nah she likes to fight. Baby girl goes 0-100 real quick. I'm glad Hazel E finally talked her out of kinda getting Ray's name off. She ended up just putting XO in front of it, I'm not sure how that came about but whatever...it looked cheap and horrible.

 

 

Yung Berg won't be on next season, his character is just as trash as he is. The way that he disrespects Hazel E is embarrassing and the way that she just takes it is even worse. Hazel needs some help or something, especially to have dealt with that dude for such a long time. I really hope that she finds somebody next season if she makes the cut. The way that the episode ended was kinda petty, I do not enjoy these cliff hangers.  SN: If you every catch the episode of them doing commentary while watching the new episodes are so so so soooo funny. The shade is too real. 

Tatted Fo' Life ! | Hip Hop Hollywood Couple Ink It !

Love and Hip Hop Stars Omarion and Apryl Jones have decided to show it's "Real" by tattooing each others name on each other which has been a popular thing to do since Rick Ross's single Free Spirit dropped. To bad I couldn't blame my first real love's name on that single, we inked each other way before the song came out. All I can do is wish them well with that, if not covers up are the DEVIL. They hurt worse than ever LOL! In other news, the couple decided to get it over the weekend Apryl inked "Omari" Omarion's nickname while he inked "April" on the back on his neck. I'm guessing Apryl's legal name is April? I'm not sure but he inked it so....

 



Engaged!! Bow wow and Erica Mena Are Headed Down The Aisle

Bow wow is Headed to The Love and Hip Hop Cast ...So I believe

Word on the street is that rapper Bow wow aka Shad Moss has decided to put a ring on it to Ms.Erica Mena! Lord knows nobody saw this coming probably due to the fact that nobody really knew that they were dating but of course it's believed to be all for next seasons Love and Hip Hop New York edition. Erica Mena is a main cast member on the show and now that she and Rich Dollaz are no longer together and nobody believe her lesbian relationship with Cyn Santana was for anything more than rating I'm sure this is just another stunt in preparation for the show. Seeing some of the women that Shad has dated in the past it's really hard to think that he would even make Erica Mena his girlfriend let along get married but we shall see what will happen with this couple. If this stunt was done to help add hype for this new season I'm really excited to see what's in store. Messy Mona knows how to run a franchise !

 

 

 

Another Day,Another Celebrity Leaked

 

 

Dammit Gabby!

 

 

Lordt! the social media was a frenzy this weekend as nude pics of Gabrielle Union surfaced the internet. Much like Jill Scott and Kim Kardashian just to name a few the pics were supposedly "leaked" now, I honestly don't think anybody is checking for gabby enough to go and leak some not so sexy photos of Gabby in my open. No boobs or butt is not exciting. Keep the cute face in a selfie! That's just me though, I can only imagine what is going through Wade's mind as everybody and their mama's have seen those photos of GU all around the internet. Like most, she became a victim of the "meme" culture that people have barked upon coming up with countless funny meme's for the photos. I just wish that people would stop leaking themselves or leaving their personal photos in the hands of untrusted people! Tsk, Tsk, Tsk, in the mean time you didn't miss anything trust and believe. 

Fantasia's Got a Date Night

Okay Tasia I see you boo! Some one's rocking something new and no it's not a bag neither does it belong to someone else *sips tea* Fantasia new boo Kendall Taylor decided to make it a date night recently as Tasia shared pics on her instagram headed to a close friends wedding naming taylor as her "Ken Doll" how cute? Interestingly enough the jury is still out on how long two have been together but it's obvious that via Fantasia's instagram she's wearing a ring on THAT finger. Yes, no shade no tea it's about damn time if the two are preparing for marriage. However, they seem to enjoy eachother and at the end of the day that's the only thing that matters. Wish them the BEST!

Gladiators Get Ready! | Scandal is Back

Grab your popcorn and wine because Liv is back....


Finally! It's been gone so long I nearly forgot about the show. To be honest I couldn't even tell you where we left off because Shonda forgot about us for so long but she's back to save the day well...my Thursdays at least will be eventful. September 25th be ready for all of the scandalous drama that is to come. I know this show creates bonding time for my mother and I because we basically live for this show. If you haven't seen it, believe ALL hype because it's that great if you don't agree just tune in next Thursday with me! Just check out the teaser below..

Ratchet Review| Love and Hip Hop Hollywood

To sum it all up...

I already said that I think I will enjoy this season, is it bad that I'm already ready for the reunion show though? Anyway, I thought the first episode was pretty good, thus far everybody seems to have an interesting story line. One of the cast mates that's strikes me with a "Why are you here?"  is Morgan Lee who is Ray J's assistant outside of being that "bestfriend" who has her hand in all of her "bestfriend's" relationships. I've seen her kind before so I know what she's about, plus she knows that Ray is majority of her income so of course she's going to throw judgement where it fits her best. With that being said, it'll be interesting to see how she plays middle man to her friend's relationships. I'm sure things can only get complicated. Men...NEVER let your bestfriend had a say in your relationship or situation. Next thing you know, she's thinking about herself and yeah, I'm not going to go any farther, ya'll know the deal. 

Moving on..Am I the only one feeling like I'm back at a semi Scream Tour reunion with Omarion and Lil Fizz? My goodness, I hope some good music comes from this publicity and it's interesting that both gentlemen want to get rid of the B2K fame phase, that's interesting. I think it's time we call E for a story because I need to know why these men don't want to acknowledge what has got them to this point in their lives. However, as far as it goes with Apryl, Omarion's girlfriend and mother of his child...I'm not sure exactly how I feel about her. I don't want to speak to soon so with that being saying, she's pretty. That's all I'm going to say. Now for his mother, PETTY! I'm sick with these money hungry mothers getting on TV and just not only embarrassing themselves but their children with the foul things that they say about them or the one's that they love. I pray and hope that she won't be on a Momma Dee level by the time that this season is over. I actually want a mom to get on this show and show them how classy women act, but hell...why would Mona cast someone who's classy? SMH. Wishful thinking.

Fizz "Drew" has a unexpected story line I was actually a little surprised. To be in between a baby's mother and a loyal girlfriend is a hard place to be. What I will say though, is kudos to him for being a great dad to his son through out all of his drama as far as parenting goes with Moniece, his child's mother who seems all types of crazy. It says alot that they share joint custody of their son however, he still stays with his father majority of time since she's trying to "make a dolla" as she calls it. All I know is that she's not here for his girlfriend amanda being with Fizz or playing stepmother to their son. 

My favorite couple have to be Souljaaaa Boy and his baby girl Nia Riley, Teddy Riley's daughter. I don't really care for him because his music is petty but I ADORE his relationship and love for Nia. I also love the fact that he takes in her daughter and doesn't feel ashamed about fathering another mans child. That shows a pertha of maturity, most men have a hard time stepping in the father role for a child they didn't make let alone one that they feel should have been his anyway. I just hope these two stick together nine years is a long time to stick around. 

Lastly, Ray J I'm not here for, he's had way to many shows in the past for me to believe that he's on this show being all the way one hundred. I do believe that his story line with Teairra Mari is real, although I do feel that she turns it up a bit much for the camera however....for the one you love you'll find yourself doing the unthinkable even if it is throwing a cup on his now girlfriend Princess Love who happens to be Floyd Mayweather's ex. Now for some tea, I wasn't sure exactly who this Princess Love girl is but is seems as though she's here for the show and nothing more. My mouth dropped to the floor when it was reported at her break up with Mayweather she stole jewels and money from his mansion. OUCH! These chicks ain't loyal and it seems she likes to golddig and Ray much very well be her next come up...guess we'll just have to continue watching to find out what will happen. PS. In some weird crazy way..I secretly hope Ray and Tee get back together..I like them! 

Trigga's Got A Boo! | Or Not?

Trigga definitely has a thing for women who look similar to each other. *Sips tea*  However, that's clearly not my business. Word on the street is that Trey Songz snatched up singer/songwriter Mila J. Who also happens to be the big sister to song bird Jhene Aiko. I'm not sure if you remember Mila J's few moments of fame back in 2007 with her hit single "Good Lookin' Out"  which is still a single I'd download on my phone but she has made somewhat of a comeback with a few  single s like "Smoke, Drink, Break -up" and "My Main"  which was #33 on the music charts. Although there is nothing confirming the two being together, they definitely aren't denying it from public kisses to the instagram firting. To add more to the fire, Trey actually put her on a single for his album TRIGGA. Funny thing about this, Mila is remarkably similar looking to Trey Songz ex-fiancee Ethiopian goddess Helen Gedlu who's now engaged to NBA  star Terrence Williams since she and Trey parted ways. Say what you want, but it may seem as though Mr.Songz may have a "Type"..could just be me though. All in all, rarely ever do you see trey claiming someone publicly, this should be fun to watch. 

Send You Back Sunday's

Enjoy

Completely Out Of Hand | The Rice's

Being that this situation is MONTHS old and all of the ignorance surrounding it is causing a fury as much as I didn't want to bring it up, it's a must that I do. Let's start here...

1. One in every 4 women is involved in domestic abuse 

2. Most abuse cases are never reported 

NOW. I have a question, if Janay Rice thought it was okay to go ahead and marry the man that she CHOSE to be with after she was hit in the face in a elevator in Atlantic City then why are we bashing her for her decision? it's HER decision. Yes, most woman in cases are scared and the fact that he felt comfortable enough to hit her in public leaves the assumption that this may not be the first time that Ray has hit Janay. I didn't post any sad pics or eye opening videos of the two and the dispute mainly because I'm tired of seeing it and as a one woman to another, it's sad to constantly be reminded about it. Now, news reporters and everyone under the sun thinks that they have a voice in her situation simply bullying and abusing her with words. I'm not sure who's worse at this point. Just because I'm taking her side doesn't mean that he's right... no one in the situation said that he was I'm just suggesting that nobody really knows what or why and it's honestly nobody's business. It's sad to see Janay lose everything she wanted in a matter of months because of people trying to shame one's actions whether right or wrong for their own personal satisfaction. PS. Word still isn't clear on how much TMZ was paid or put out for this video. 

I can only imagine what it's like to have reporters come to your door with flowers and hurtful "Why did you stay?" messages I honestly would have the cops sitting outside for harassment. It's sad to see alot of African American athletes get pulled into mess like this. I really hope that this family seeks some help and commits to making things better for each other not only for the sake of the child but because they are high school sweethearts and their love history seems to be enough to fight for.   

Love & Hip Hop Hollywood Preview

I just wanted to say....I have seen the first episode of this season and I'm completely interested. I will say that none the less it is full of drama like Mona would like but I will say it's a more classy-ratchy unlike the other cities like ATL or NYC. I'm not really wild about the cast but it works thus far. It will be interesting to see how all the messy love triangles play out since almost all of the relationships this season are threesomes instead of two people working on their love for one another. It's more of a P-contest! From baby mamas to ex-girlfriends and family members this season will be all of cut throat. If you can't wait til Monday to watch, no worries, I gotcha! 

Quite Frankly, Blank.

When I saw this meme-post it automatically made me feel better, made me at least feel normal and that I'm not the only one in the world dealing with my pot of crap. Three things these last few weeks have taught me is.... 

1. In order to commit to someone else I must first fully commit to myself. - In other words, can't point the finger about being treated a particular way when I, myself am not valuing me enough to continue to let it happen. 
2. People are going to look out for themselves and what works for them and their situation best. - No shade, no tea but everybody ain't your friend. Not that they don't like you or plan to intentionally hurt you but everything in life to them is a hustle and gamble and they're just trying to make their next move their best move even if that is running over you. 
3. I don't know WTF I want. -.....well, that's pretty straight forward. 

I had to be honest with myself first and honestly, I was stepping into a place where I was comfortable with the unfamiliar and that's called maturity. It's amazing how admitting certain things to yourself can be such therapy.No, like really, it's crazy how easy it is just be REAL with yourself and others and how much peace it brings and drama it saves. Plus, to live and keep up with a lie is just not a healthy way to live at all. The last few weeks weren't really eye-opening because I had foreseen the events panning out the way they did anyway.. I guess I just wanted to be proved wrong  for once and nobody wanted that rewarding feeling more than me. So. Now, it was time to face the truth of it all and that it will be OK just embrace it thank God for the opportunity to not only not allow it move you but to teach you valuable lessons that hopefully won't hurt you again. Although my mind and emotions are blank I AM and WILL continue moving towards something extraordinary, I just don't know what that is yet...

NANOWRIMO| Get Out Your Pens!

NANOWRIMO?

As if it were a secret, I have a passion for writing. Like a HUGE passion for writing and like any other writer I'm always trying to WRITE or take part in as many writing exercises as possible to get better and more creative SO the infamous Bull pin has turned me on to a fun writing exercise! Not sure if you know but November is National Novel Writing Month (NANO) so there's this website called NaNoWriMO that you can log onto and actually write a short story to post onto the website for everyone and their mama's to see, which actually is kinda cool if you ask me. Nothing like free advertisement and I'm a critique freak I constantly want to know what I'm doing wrong and what I could be doing to be better. Last year there were 641,560 novelist who entered the contest. Of course the goal is to finish your novel by the end of the month and if you use their tools it's actually not something unbelievably achievable you learn it's actually pretty easy . NanoWriMO has pep talks and support as well as tracking your progress as you go along which is helpful. The website is completely free and I posted the link above for you to create a account and get writing! The experience is really fun especially if you have friends who enjoy the same interest who join in. This activity is something the bull pin and I thoroughly enjoy and I have a feeling if your passionate you'll enjoy it too. Once I start writing I'll also post it on here  as well or pieces to share with you all. Also feel free to follow my story along with the bullpin on the actual website itself. If you decide to put your writing skills to use please feel free to share your story link with me so that I to can read and comment. Let the writing begin !!!  

#WCW | Woman Crush Wednesday

SLAY ME KEE! 

I was just telling someone the other day Keke Palmer has been giving me major life lately! After wrapping up her test run of Just Keke with through the rough ratings! recently being announced as the first black Cinderella to be on Broadway, OH! and turning 21 I think it's safe to say this hot mama is doing her thing and in high demand! It amazing to see Keke Palmer be so successful these days and actually taking a initiative to be a positive role model for youth which is not only a hard task to take-on but also a hard task to keep up. With social media these days  and crazy paps it's almost unheard of to stay off a magazine cover for something negative but I must say, this Queen has been doing a remarkable job. Hopefully she keeps up the good work and continues slaying us with these beautiful brown skin selfies ! 

 SLAY SLAY SLAAAAY! 

Track Five | Racing

"Well, I was instantly upset." 

That was all I could utter. I think my actions expressed that much clearly. I was so upset I couldn't even explain it to him and because every action has a reaction he snapped back. It all was going so smoothly...as things usually go but I think it was his text I had dwelled on a little too long. We all have a breaking point but that was the wrong moment, however the few glasses of wine allowed me to speak up. Things were feeling to comfortable and it was only a bad thing because we were in a uncomfortable position. Well, I was. I was getting use to him and it took no time for me to get that comfortable. He was comfortable too, he was relaxed with me which I enjoyed to a extent. I wanted to be selfish with him and that night I'm guessing he could tell. 

Honestly, I hated sharing my cake with someone who wasn't hungry. I hated it, he hated it too but there was nothing being done about it, well not quick enough for me. So I blew up.  I didn't mean to but it was overwhelming. Can't stay long  kept dancing in my mind. I didn't want the kid to leave at all I absolutely hated saying goodbye and I didn't this time. Things were complicated and I felt myself drawing to close to someone who couldn't fully commit to me. At least not yet...he had done things this weekend that had my bestfriend screaming "Why can't my man do stuff like that for me?" he was good like that, he knew the little stuff made me smile.. at one point I thought to myself how lucky am I ? but that feeling had left and now the feeling of worriedness (yes I just made that up) had surfaced. "You were so cold to me." he sensed my emotion he was just unsure as to where it came from. "Explain, you gotta let me know." it was hard to do that, it seemed easier to write it all out here than to tell him at the moment. Mind racing... 

*Written days ago*

Kimono's Everlasting

Kimono Everlastinggggg! I wish I had a Kimono for everyday because these little cover up are WAAAY to fly so I thought I'd show ya'll my fall obsession and the different types of Kimono's that you can wear and pair with anything from jeans and skirts to heels and sneakers! they are too cute as a accessory. Check out Karmaloop.com, H&M, Pacsun and ASOS for some cute reasonable kimono's as well as other goodies....Thank me later :) 

Congrats Are In Honor For Kevin Hart & Eniko Parrish

If it doesn't work the first time just brush yourself off and try again! 

Congrats are in order for Kevin Hart and his girlfriend of 5 years Eniko said yes in front of family and friends and what better way to get down on one knee to the woman you adore then at her #DirtyThirty birthday party? However, who would have ever thought that Hart's fans would cause a uproar about it? Fans of the funny comedian though that the proposal was a setup. 

See, Kevin Hart has a ex-wife who is now on the VH1 special Atlanta Ex's and to make matters worst the premiere aired August 18 (Monday) which in fact was the day of Eniko's birthday party and engagement. Now, I did catch the first episode of the show and I must say that Torrei Hart is pulling all strings for that check! Although she says that she's happy and explained that those emotions being televised were relived back in January and that  she's very content in her life and  that she is everything BUT bitter only, nobody's buying that. The way that woman got up there and cried on Cee-lo's ex wife's shoulder and whined about how unfair she's being treated in this divorced led me to believe that those are wombs that will take years to heal however every woman deals differently with pain. 

Where this all gets messy is that, there's now a picture being painted that Kevin cheated on his wife with his now Fiancee' Eniko Parrish. OUCH! No woman wants to be replaced but to be replaced by the sidechick can only make a woman furious. Even though the women have shared plenty of SHADE back and forth to each other recently it's really hard to believe that this is for anything but publicly for the show. Looking at some fan comments on the picture above which happens to be on Kevin Harts Instagram page, both ladies have before supported each other in some form or fashion. I recently read a interview where Torrei even expressed possibly building a friendship with the woman. Now S/N: This is really another blog post but no woman should want or even have a desire to befriend the new woman in their ex's life and vice versa. It's just not going to work, being cordial? absolutely but taking it as far as befriending? which means hanging out, shopping, traveling together? NO MA'AM and word of advice you can't trust the woman trying to befriend you especially if they've spoken badly on your name but that's just me. Moving on...

I'm pretty sure Eniko, whether she is the cause or not of Torrei and Kevin's divorce  is somewhere reading up on all the shade that this "ex wife"  has been dishing since the premiere. Also, whether Torrei is over Kevin or not I'm sure he's alot of the reason why people are watching mainly to find out which party is lying. All in all it'll be interesting to see what will happen on the show this season and how her story as a Ex-wife will develop hopefully some scenes with her new "boo" will be featured as well. Only time will tell...to catch this tea-worthy show on VH1 tuned in on Monday nights at 8:30c! 

Track Five:The Pact

"So are you going to tell me about this boyfriend?" 

I immediately rolled my eyes at that statement for two reasons, one: he was just now bringing this up and two: I knew he was trying to take the steam off him since he was somewhat in the hot seat.I knew what I was about to tell him didn't sound believable however was very much the truth. "We broke up." it was simple, we did break up...like weeks ago. His response was nothing less than what I expected. He didn't really believe me... I guess because he had devils of his own in his closet but he was late, that relationship was over but brad still lingered around therefore I spared him the staggering response and straight up asked what he wanted to know and  like any man he said "what do I need to know?". 


I wasn't exactly sure what he needed to know. For starters it was hard to tell him anything for the simple fact that he was sensitive to what news was brought to him about me whether it came from me or a listening ear so it was ironic that we were even having this conversation in the first place however we recently made a pact to share whatever no matter what. That was the only way we'd stay in a positive place and steer from being at one another's throat. However, right at this moment it was extremely hard with the news that he was bringing to think or remain positive! I knew we agreed on sharing everything but there were just somethings my ears weren't ready for but I swallowed the pill plus we were in complete different places right now so I cut him A LOT of slack. Like he.. I was sensitive and selfish too but I could handle things a lot better than he, he hears something he doesn't like, we might go a few days without talking depending on what it is and how it rubbed him.I might not like what I hear coming from him all the time but I try not to let it get to me. I mean, one of us has to keep it together for the sake of this ship sailing smoothly.


I know this all sounds confusing I'm very single but I'm not open if that makes sense... I've been in a really insane situation with someone who's not only someone I consider one of my very best friends because he knows me inside and out but also he's my BIGGEST supporter even when I get on his nerves LOL but someone I've been deeply intimately connected to for the last five years. We first dated when I was a baby girl and we haven't let go of each other since. Have we dated other people since? obviously but it only seems to happen when we are in a dry spot not talking to each other and basically "beefing". Although, he and I haven't had a title in a few years.

 "Well, the reason it didn't work is because basically he's too busy for me. We don't see each other at all." I couldn't lie, talking about me being with or entertaining somebody else already wasn't a topic he really wanted to speak on but it was a pleasant feeling to know that the same emotion was being shared it was just ME that was the topic and not him. The conversation was really a blur since we were in two different environments last night and he wasn't able to really talk to me that way he wanted so I went to bed. 


"Wait, so you never saw him? tf." I woke up to that message thinking about how this whole truth's pact is going to pan out since we vowed to remain honest throughout it all.  It's not hard to be honest but when you're in love with someone it's a battle of trying to be honest and trying not to hurt their feelings and we both have had our share of hurting with and without each other so it's important to keep it BRUTAL. As far as any LOVE thing goes, he's the beginning and with a lot of consistency definitely the END.All I can do is  see what happens, hopefully the pact works in our favor. 


S/N: There's A LOT I'm not speaking on just yet. I'll break down the behind the scenes eventually. Just know it's just so hard to stay away from someone who makes you feel all fuzzy inside. AHHHHHHH

Revenge of The Baby Mama? I Can't

 

             This is why I really don't want to ever date a guy with kids or multiple baby mothers. 

I figure it's no news that Ciara and Future have called it quits, the sad part about it all is that she's a new mom which makes me think that bad boy future has been getting it popping with other women for quite sometime now. Anywho...which makes this situation so interesting is that word is, future never fully left the relationship with the mother of his one year old son, Brittni and while Ciara was at home caring for the newest edition to this brady bunch Future was on tour with Brittni and their one year old son. S/N: & Dudes wonder why alot of girls don't take that mess. I personally knew that this wasn't going to last long I mean come on....who can take a man with five kids and five baby mama's serious? NOBODY  and if you do, expect that your in for nothing less than a headache whether that man really wants to be with you or not. In between jealous women and one man it's just hard to see possible. 

Now the REAL tea is that if what is being said is all true then Ciara was doomed from the start! because as the saying goes, Karma is a B!tch and she had what was coming for her if she always knew that Brittni was in the picture and that in fact, Ciara was the "sidepiece". Now it all gets messy because I can only imagine how Brittni could have felt knowing that she's been with and supporting this man and his career from day one only for him to turn around and snatch up a celebrity girlfriend like most men in the industry do and I imagine that the water only boiled over when Ciara announced her baby and engagement. However, I'm sure ALL of the baby mama's are somewhere reading the blogs laughing at this entire situation and her stupidity. While all this is going on, why wouldn't Future's management turn this into a profit? Only statement that has been released on all this from Future's camp is that he's turning all this "negativity energy" towards his music. *sideye*

“That love thing kinda hindered him I think, it slowed him down mentally,” the friend said.

“Future’s one of those dudes you don’t really interview,” he said. “To know what’s going on in his life that day, you gotta go to the studio that day. He just takes longer to put his words together and his thoughts.”

Future’s working now, the friend said, on a mixtape to be released to iTunes later this Fall titled Evol. Pronounced like evil, that’s “love spelled backwards,” the friend explained, suggesting that the forthcoming songs are not specifically about falling out of love, but rather about the unexpected forms love can take. “Future has a weird way to love. You might see it’s not all the way right, but it’s still love. It’s not traditional love.”

The friend said that, in spite of the engagement’s end, Ciara and Future may remain friends. Future’s had children with at least three women before Ciara, and the friend says they’re all a part of a family, if a non-traditional one.

When I was in L.A. with him, he has all of his kids and babies’ mothers with him there. When he was in Atlanta on tour with Drake, all of his baby mothers, including Ciara, were there,” he said. “Future loves all his kids and babies’ mothers. I think he’s loved all of them equally.

The mixtape that Future is working on releasing is called "evol" which is Love spelled backwards. Where's my tea for this ish? because I defintely will be taking a listen. With the mixtape coming out and really no other words from his people has gotta be sending Ciara up the wall although she has posted pictures in the studio working on music as well trying to remain focus it doesn't help that USWeekly has not only tried to confirm the split but made up a articles stating that Ciara was happy and remaining focused. Not that it was bad, it definitely made Ciara take a noticed and clap back at them via Twitter. As of that's not enough Brittni is now posted pics and vids from the places that Future happens to be on tour in with some really shady picture comments to add along. The lesson to learn from all this ratchetness is to: 

1. Watch who you love, every apple isn't golden
2. If he has kids, make sure they aren't young...9/10 they are still messing with eachother 
3. If there's multiple babymamas.....RUN
4. If the mother(s) of his children are jealous....RUN 
5. All in all just stay away.....unless you know he's trust worthy

I won't be surprised if later, one of these ladies join a Rapper's GF's/Ex's cast of some sort eventually. 

Rioting For Respect?

Dear African American Community, 

I believe at this point in time, not just us but everyone knows that if there's nothing else in this world that we will ever do for ourselves we will definitely DIE for our respect. Now the question lies, how far will we take it? because we've now allowed other races and communities to think that it's ok to harm us. However, I don't blame them...we kill each other, right? so why wouldn't other people kill us? We are just as ignorant if not more than they for this act. It's sickening to hear that a innocent young black man was gunned down by a police office and killed. Just like everyone in St. Louis I was in enraged with anger as well for first myself being a African American female but also to know that things like this are still happening and yes indeed racism is very much still alive and well. 

I cannot imagine nor even understand how his mother must feel on that day seeing her unarmed 18 year old son laying in the middle of the street face down drenched in blood. I just can't fathom the idea of such. I do imagine though, the level of embarrassment and discernment that she must have felt when what was suppose to be a candle-light service held for someone in respect and concern not only for  justice of Mike Brown and the many others who had fallen due to police and racist crimes but also to stand together for the black community turned into a full blown riot. It's interesting to me that we still fight violence with violence. I believe we learned many, many, many years ago way before our time that fighting wouldn't fix the problem but create more problems. Which makes matter worse is that all this took place in their own backyard. Why must we destroy where we lay to prove a point? haven't we already shown that time and time again only to have nothing to show for our actions? In all honesty...we look stupid. 

Why don't we join together or at least show that we stand up for each other without violence. We don't have to like each other or agree on everything but lets put our pride aside and stand up for someone who in this case couldn't stand for themselves. Let's shock America, do the unthinkable.. stand together in peace FOR justice? is that to hard to ask from the black community? is that to hard to ask for on the behalf of Mike Brown?

A Upward Bound | Chronicles II

A date later.

Yes, I said a date later. Shortly after that number exchanged he was asking to take me to dinner and of course I accepted the offer. Dinner was good, it was fun to be out "dating" again and it was so traditional. From him picking me up from the house to opening doors, the entire nine. The kid definitely wanted to make a lasting impression. I can't remember the last time somebody opened the car door for me and I can't lie I wanted to ask when was the last time that he opened the car door for a chick but anyway to say the least it was all super cute and innocent. 

Dinner went my way. I picked one of my favorite steakhouses for us and the plus was that the kid could keep a conversation going! anybody who knows me knows I like to run my mouth but I do NOT enjoy listening to myself talk. However it was awkward that he just wanted to sit there and stare at me all night while his little pasta dish got cold. Long story short we sat there talking for hours about alot of things. It was refreshing, I'd definitely do it again. I think the fact that he was younger than me did a lot for my anxiety, I wasn't really nervous at all. Very cool, calm and collected. All in all I had a wonderful time there's nothing like good food and conversation. I just don't think anything more will ever come of it, just a dinner or two. At the end of the day, the kid doesn't live here and somewhere in the back of my head I imagine that he is hoping his gentleman ways will get him some turn up time with me later but Nah, that's not exactly the way I envision this going. 

He's cute but it's not worth it, he's not worth it. Like I said, just a bit to eat. Chicks go wrong lovin' on every cutie who offers her a chance. I believe he envisioned himself walking away from dinner with probably a intimate hug and pushing for just a quick peck on the lips but again, very high school. I just hugged him softly when he dropped me off at home leaving him with some sorta walk of shame, IF in fact that was his intention and his sad face emoji he sent me when I opened the door let me know I was correct at least to some extent. 


*UPDATE*

So the goal was to have this finished and out 2 weeks ago but the way my life is set up...time didn't permit that. Sadly, he's no longer here. He went back to Louisiana a few days ago and it's safe to say no kiss ever happened either LOL. Not even a second date. I became so overwhelmed with other ventures that I wasn't even interested in a second date. Nothing awkward happened though, he didn't stop talking or flirting with me. If anything he became more comfortable which kinda bothered me. Why? I'm not sure but I didn't want him to grow comfortable. I don't like anybody to get too comfy because to me that creates room for possible error but anyway I didn't think to deep into it. Again, he's just a school kid. However my cute little friend is to start school in the following weeks and I really do wish him the best. Not sure if I'll ever see the kid again but I think we both made fun lasting impressions on each other to say the least. I don't think I'll ever had someone as adamant as him to try to distract me. I want to wish  him well though with school and all his future endeavors.